OSCARS in MinD

Hello Guyz...

Wowowow.... I forget to tell you all in the last post, after I came to know that I won't be allowed to become an actor in my 8th standard, I even thought of leaving my home after completion of my 10th. I thought to move to Mumbai (dream city), and try for a role in movie, but it never happened as by completion of my 10th exams, I want to complete my 12th standard and go to a good college and from there I would be going for acting and all.
Now, when I was in 10th standard, I came to know about the most prestigious and award at international level called Academy Awards(OSCARS). I wasn't that much affected by this, though it was for 1st time I saw some portion of it, I think that time "Crash" took the Oscar. Also, I came to know that every year India used to sent a entry for Oscars to compete in foreign category. I thought, there must me some special thing about Oscars, that even our country's movies were being welcomed. So, I started taking interest in watching Oscars. I used to take keen interest in the movie being send for the same by our country. Hmm, as time passed away, Oscars were doing great in my mind. Also I came to know that the awards in our country were biased. So, Filmfare lost its respect in my mind. Then I don't want to win any award, just to contribute it the industry. But it was I think 2007 when Danny boyle directed "Slumdog Millionaire" starring Indian actors done great internationally. Though it was called a Hollywood movie, but still it was being shot in Mumbai, India. and so, close to my heart. It was when my 12th board exams were about to start and just 3 days were left for my chemistry paper, The Oscars were going to be announced lively at about 6 am morning. For that day, I woke up at 4 to finish a chapter , just to watch the Oscars as slumdog was nominated with 12 nominations(don't remember exactly) and when finally Slumdog was declared an Oscar for best movie, I was just jumping, shouting and filled with emotions. It took 8 Oscars that year and I was so excited and enthusiast that I even wished my every friend "Jai Ho".
And It was for the first time I Dreamt Of Me Receiving an Oscar. For the first time, I was sure of doing something, sure of accomplishing something, sure of proving myself. I prayed to God that day, that I want seen an Oscar in my hand one day and that too in main category, best actor. and I knew one day this will surely happen as I have full faith in HIM. huh... OSCARS, I deadly want you. Will you be mine...Amen...    

Drive To Dream - 3 (fighting for it)

Hello Guyz...

So, continuing my last blog, after 8th standard I got determined to achieve my goal (acting ka kida). But the problems started as well. I was having turban, and seeing the past of bollywood no turbaned guy had not been  a successful. Initially I was sure not have hair cut and become the 1st famous turbaned actor. But I was watching the male actors being handsome hair cuts attracting girls, I got affected and started thinking of having a hair cut. But being from a sikh family, having no father and only peer pressure, it was difficult for me to directly ask my mom to have a cut. So, I decided to start acting like I am having hair fall and itching problems. Even one day I tried to cut a groove on my head, just to show that continuous itching had led to bleeding. Also, once I slept applying chewing gum on my hairs, so that next day I could get my hairs cut. But my mom experience even surpass that. Then I started feeling that they would not allow me for this.

So, one day I directly asked my mom. I knew how much courage I collected to ask her to have cut. But still no reply. I used to cry every day and ask God to help me out. It might seem you all silly, but at my position, elder boy of family, doing such weird things, was seriously not done. I myself some time used to feel guilty of what I was doing to my family. After my fathers death I was the hope of family ,my acting desires were not letting me sit back. So, I fight until I could. 

After I went to the hostel for my college degree, away from home, I got it accomplished. I still remember the day when I without telling any body at home went to a saloon, while returning back hostel, and had a cut. HuH... It always brings tear in my eyes, when I recall these incidents. Also, the day I told them all about same, is the most difficult day of my life to have lived till now. ooooooo..... can't continue know, seriously not in mood to write... have gr8 times guyz... gudiiiiiieeeeeesssss......

Drive To Dream - 2

Hello Guyz...

Back in form... where I left last night...hmm... Ya... dreaming OSCARS came somewhat later, Let me tell you all what made my dreams shift from doctor to actor. When I was in 8th standard, there used to come a reality show on Zee TV called ZEE CINE-STARS KI KHOJ. Me and my family used to watch it every time it flashes on tv. That time these reality tv shows were a new concept, so it was really craze to watch the contestants going through different rounds and ultimately one takes the trophy and cash money, not like today... huge number of shows... Anyway, the motto of show is to select 2 actors- 1 male and other female. I still remember the winners of that show- Aditi Sharma ( worked in latest Mausum and Ricky Behl vs Ladies) and Sarwar Ahuja ( worked in a show on NDTV imagine 'Jyoti') . When its contests used to perform acts and dances it arouses goosebumps in me, and I started feeling my self among themselves. I started dreaming of being there. I don't know what was happening to me, but it was changing my lifestyle. I started practising dances at bollywood numbers regularly. I was so attached with it, one day I asked my mom that I want to become an ACTOR. and guess what what she said me ,"Jutiyan khania he".( shall I slap you) and I shattered and decided to to again tell anybody about this desires of mine.

After this I started watching all the awards functions of bollywood and found that Filmfare is the most prestigious one. I started attaching myself with them all. But I never let it affect my studies. I was counted among toppers. Hmm... at the end of 8th I was sure to become an actor but the basic question aroused "HOW??? Without support of parents, peers, relatives"...and I tink the most difficult one.

I made many plans for this "how"... but its my time to leave you all with my wishes... Have a dreamy, creamy, night...

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